d
her with my usual confidence, "God will assist us." I generally reached
the chapel without being wet. While there the rain fell excessively.
When I returned it ceased. When I got home it began again with fresh
violence. During several years that I have acted this way, I have never
been deceived in my confidence. When I was in town, and could find
nobody, I was surprised that there came to me priests to ask me if I
was willing to receive the communion, and that if I was they would give
it to me. I had no mind to refuse the opportunity which Thou thyself
offered me; for I had no doubt of its being Thee who inspired them to
propose it. Before I had contrived to get divine service at the chapel
I have mentioned, I have often suddenly awoke with a strong impulse to
go to prayers. My maid would say, "But, madam, you are going to tire
yourself in vain. There will be no service." For that chapel was not
yet regularly served. I went full of faith and at my arrival have found
them just ready to begin. If I could particularly enumerate the
remarkable providences which were hereupon given in my favor there
would be enough to fill whole volumes.

When I wanted to hear from, or write to Mother Granger, I often felt a
strong propensity to go to the door. There to find a messenger with a
letter from her. This is only a small instance of these kind of
continual providences. She was the only person I could be free to open
my heart to, when I could get to see her, which was with the greatest
difficulty. It was through providential assistance; because prohibited
by my confessor and husband. I placed an extreme confidence in Mother
Granger. I concealed nothing from her either of sins or pains. I did
not now practice any austerities but those she was willing to allow me.
My interior dispositions I was scarcely able to tell because I knew not
how to explain myself, being very ignorant of those matters, having
never read or heard of them.

One day when they thought I was going to see my father, I ran off to
Mother Granger. It was discovered, and cost me crosses. Their rage
against me was so excessive, that it would seem incredible. Even my
writing to her was extremely difficult. I had the utmost abhorrence of
a lie, so I forbade the footman to tell any. When they were met they
were asked whither they were going, and if they had any letters. My
mother-in-law set herself in a little passage, through which those who
went out must necessarily