dence was conducting all things.
Sister Garnier did not declare her thoughts to me for four days. Then
she told me she would not go with me. At this I was the more surprised,
as I had persuaded myself that God would grant to her virtue what He
might refuse to my demerits. Besides, the reason she gave appeared to
me to be merely human, and void of supernatural grace. That made me
hesitate a little; then, taking new courage, through the resignation of
my whole self, I said, "As I go not thither for your sake, I will not
fail to go even without you." This surprised her, as she acknowledged
to me; for she thought that, on her refusal, I would decline my purpose
of going.

I regulated everything, wrote down the contract of association with
them as I thought proper. No sooner had I done it, but I felt great
perturbation and trouble of mind. I told her my pain, and that I had no
doubt but the Lord demanded me at Geneva, yet did not let me see that
He would have me to be of their congregation. She desired to have some
time till after prayers and communion, and that then she would tell me
what she thought the Lord required of me. Accordingly, He directed her
contrary both to her interests and inclination. She then told me that I
ought not to connect myself with her, that it was not the Lord's
design; that I only ought to go with her sister's, and that when I
should be there, Father La Combe, (whose letter she had seen) would
signify to me the divine will. I entered at once into these sentiments,
and my soul then regained the sweets of inward peace.

My first thought had been (before I heard of the New Catholics going to
Gex) to go directly to Geneva. At this time there were Catholics there
in service, and otherwise; to take some little room without any noise,
and without declaring myself at first; and as I knew how to make up all
sorts of ointments to heal wounds and especially the king's evil, of
which there is abundance in that place, and for which I had a most
certain cure. I hoped easily to insinuate myself by this way and with
the charities which I should have done to have won over many of the
people. I have no doubt but, if I had followed this impulse, things
would have succeeded better. But I thought I ought to follow the
sentiments of the Bishop rather than my own. What am I saying? Has not
Thy eternal Word, O my Lord, had its effect and accomplishment in me?
Man speaks as man; but when we behold things in the Lord, we