see them
in another light. Yes, my Lord, Thy design was to give Geneva not to my
cares, words or works, but to my sufferings; for the more I see things
appear hopeless, the more do I hope for the conversion of that city by
a way known to Thee only.

Father La Combe has told me since, that he had a strong impulse to
write to me, not to engage with the New Catholics. He believed it not
to be the will of the Lord concerning me; but he omitted doing it. As
to my director, M. Bertot, he died four months before my departure. I
had some intimations of his death, and it seemed as if he bequeathed me
a portion of his spirit to help his children.

I was seized with a fear, that the check I had felt, at giving so
largely in favor of the New Catholics, what I had designed for Geneva,
was a stratagem of nature, which does not love to be stripped. I wrote
to Sister Garnier to get a contract drawn up according to my first
memorial. God permitted me to commit this fault, to make me the more
sensible of His protection over me.

PART TWO

CHAPTER 1

I went off, in a strange renunciation, and in great simplicity,
scarcely able to render the reason why I should in such a manner quit
my family, which I most tenderly love, being without any positive
assurance, yet hoping even against hope itself. I went to the New
Catholics at Paris, where Providence wrought wonders to conceal me.
They sent for the notary, who had drawn up the contract of engagement.
When he read it to me, I felt such a repugnance to it, that I could not
bear to hear it to the end, much less sign it. The notary wondered and
much more so when Sister Garnier came in, and told him, that there
needed no contract of engagement. I was enabled through divine
assistance, to put my affairs in very good order, and to write sundry
letters by the inspiration of the Spirit of God, and not by my own.
This was what I had never experienced before. It was given me at that
time only as a beginning, and has since been granted me much more
perfectly.

I had two domestics, whom it was very difficult for me to discharge, as
I did not think to take them with me. If I had left them, they would
have told of my departure; and I should have been sent after. I was
when it became known. But God so ordered it that they were willing to
follow me. They were of no use to me, and soon after turned into
France. I took with me only my daughter, and two maids to serve us
both. We set off