le of
Jesus Christ. I brought from home nine thousand livres. As by my
donation I had reserved nothing to myself and by a contract lent them
six thousand; this six thousand has returned to my children but none of
it to me. That gives me no trouble; poverty, thus procured, constitutes
my riches. The rest I gave entirely to the sisters that were with us,
as well to supply their traveling expenses, for the purchase of
furniture. I did not reserve so much as my linen for my own use,
putting it in the common fund. I had neither a locked coffer, nor
purse. I had brought but little linen for fear of mistrust. In wanting
to carry off clothes I should have been discovered. My persecutors did
not fail to report that I had brought great sums from home, which I had
imprudently expended, and given to the friends of Father La Combe.
False as I had not a penny. On my arrival at Annecy a poor man was
asking alms. I, having nothing else, gave him the buttons from my
sleeves. At another time I gave a poor man a little plain ring, in the
name of Jesus Christ. I had worn it as a token of marriage with Him.
We joined the flying stage at Melun where I left Sister Garnier. I went
on with the other sisters with whom I had no acquaintance. The
carriages were very fatiguing; I got no sleep through so long a
journey. My daughter, a very tender child, only five years of age, got
scarcely any. We bore great fatigue without falling sick by the way. My
child had not an hour's uneasiness, although she was only three hours
in bed every night. At another time half this fatigue, or even the want
of rest, would have thrown me into a fit of sickness. God only knows
both the sacrifices which He induced me to make, and the joy of my
heart in offering up everything to Him. Had I kingdoms and empires, I
think I would yield them up with still more joy, to give Him the higher
marks of my love.
As soon as we arrived at the inn, I went to church and stayed there
till dinner time. In the coach, my divine Lord communed with me, and in
me, in a manner which the others could not comprehend, indeed not
perceive. The cheerfulness I showed in the greatest dangers encouraged
them. I even sang hymns of joy at finding myself disengaged from the
riches, honors and entanglements of the world. God in such a manner
protected us. He seemed to be to us "a pillar of fire by night, and a
pillar of a cloud by day." We passed over a very dangerous spot between
Lyons and Chamberry
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