and handled with relish. At about the same period, when these
visions began to come to him, he casually heard that a man used
to come and expose his person before the window of a room where
the maids sat; this troubled him vaguely. Between the age of 8
and 11 he twice took the penis of a cousin into his mouth, after
they had slept together; the feeling of the penis pleased him.
When sleeping with another cousin, they used to lie with hands
outstretched to cover each other's penis or nates. He preferred
the nates, but his cousin the penis. Neither of these cousins was
homosexual, and there was no attempt at mutual masturbation. He
was in the habit of playing with five male cousins. One of these
boys was unpopular with the others, and they invented a method of
punishing him for supposed offenses. They sat around the room on
chairs, each with his penis exposed, and the boy to be punished
went around the room on his knees and took each penis into his
mouth in turn. This was supposed to humiliate him. It did not
lead to masturbation. On one occasion the child accidentally
observed a boy who sat next to him in school playing with his
penis and caressing it. This gave him a powerful, uneasy
sensation. With regard to all these points the subject observes
that none of the boys with whom he was connected at this period,
and who were exposed to precisely the same influences, became
homosexual.
He was himself, from the first, indifferent to the opposite sex.
In early childhood, and up to the age of 13, he had frequent
opportunities of closely inspecting the sexual organs of girls,
his playfellows. These roused no sexual excitement. On the
contrary, the smell of the female parts affected him
disagreeably. When he once saw a schoolfellow copulating with a
little girl, it gave him a sense of mystical horror. Nor did the
sight of the male organs arouse any particular sensations. He is,
however, of opinion that, living with his sisters in childhood,
he felt more curious about his own sex as being more remote from
him. He showed no effeminacy in his preferences for games or
work.
He went to a public school. Here he was provoked by boy friends
to masturbate, but, though he often saw the act in process, it
only inspired him with a sense of indecency. In his fifteenth
year puberty comme
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