in complete nudity,
frankly, in the full light of day, plunged me again for a time
headforemost into imaginative amours, and my scruples and
resolutions were flung to the winds. But, on the whole, I had now
entered a stage which, for want of a better term, I must describe
as the emotionally moral. To whatever depth of indulgence I
descended I carried a sense of obliquity with me; I believed that
I was a rebel from a law, natural and divine, of which yet no
instinct had been implanted in me. I still held unquestioned the
truth of the religion I had been brought up in, and my whole
life, every thought of my brain, every impulse of my body, were
in direct antagonism to the will of God. At times physical desire
broke down these barriers, but I practised considerable restraint
physically, though not mentally, and made great efforts to
conquer my aversion from women and extreme devotion for men,
without the slightest success. I was 30, however, before I found
a companion to love me in the way my nature required. I am quite
a healthy person, and capable of working at very high pressure.
Under sexual freedom I have become stronger."

HISTORY XXII.--T.J., aged 50; man of letters. Height 5 feet 7
inches; weight 10 stone, but formerly much less. Belongs to an
entirely normal family, all married and with children.

"Owing to the fact that my mother suffered from some malady the
whole period of gestation prior to my birth, I came into the
world so puny a child, so ill-nourished, that for some time the
doctors despaired of my life. Till the age of puberty, though
never ill, I suffered greatly from delicate health. I was
abnormally sensitive and all my affections and passions
extraordinarily developed. Owing to my brothers being much older
than myself I was thrown into the society of my sister. Till 8
years old she was my chief playmate. With her I played with dolls
and abandoned myself wholly to the delights of an imaginary land
which was much more real to me than the world around me. I never
remember learning to read, but at 5 the _Arabian Nights_ and
Kingsley's _Hereward the Wake_ were my favorite books. Living in
the country the society of other children was difficult to
obtain. My whole affections centered in my father, my mother
having died when I was a child. This affection for