they slept in different beds, and the
child went to bed early, but he always kept awake to see his
brother undress, as he adored his naked body; and would then get
into his bed. He learned the habit of masturbation from his
brother at the age of 9; at that time there was no sexual orgasm,
but watching it in his brother was a perpetual source of wonder
and pleasure. During his brother's absence at sea the boy longed
for his return and would practice self-abuse with the thought of
his brother's naked body before him. This brother's death was a
source of great grief. At the age of 12 he went to
boarding-school and was constantly falling in love with
good-looking boys. He was always taken into one of the bigger
boys' beds. At this age he was thoroughly able to enjoy the
sexual orgasm with boys. His erotic dreams have always been of
men and especially of boys; he has never dreamed sexually of
women. From the age of 9 to the age of 21, when he left school,
he never gave women a thought sexually, though he always liked
their society. For two years after leaving school he had
connection with women, not because he thought there was sin in
loving his own sex, but because he regarded it as a thing that no
one did after leaving school. During these two years he still
really preferred men and used to admire the figures of soldiers
and sailors. He then paid a visit to London, which may be
described in his own words: "I went to see an old schoolfellow
who was living there. In his room was a young fellow, fair,
extremely good looking, with a good figure and charming manners.
From that moment all my past recollections came back. I could not
get him out of my mind; in fact, I was in love with him. I
pictured him naked before me as a lovely statue; my dreams were
frequent at night, always of him. For a fortnight afterward I
practised masturbation with the picture of his lovely face and
form always before me. We became fast friends, and from that day
women have never entered my thoughts."

Although up to the present he has no wish or intention to marry,
he believes that he will eventually do so, because it is thought
desirable in his profession; but he is quite sure that his love
and affection for men and boys will never lessen.

In earlier life he preferred men from 20 to 35; now he likes bo