theatricals; he excelled in female parts, and sang the songs of
Madame Vestris, encouraged in this by his father.
The sexual organs have never been fully developed, and the
testicles, though large, are of a flabby consistence. He cannot
whistle. He thinks he ought to have been a woman.
At school he was shy and reserved, and had no particular intimacy
with anyone, although he once desired it. He learned self-abuse
from his younger brother, who had learned it from an older boy.
He has never had erotic dreams. He never touched anyone but his
brother until later when travelling in Italy, and then only his
fellow-traveller. When travelling in Asia Minor he had many
opportunities, but always put them aside from fear, afterward
regretting his fearfulness. He yearned for intimacy with
particular friends, but never dared to express it. He went much
to theaters, and what he saw there incited him to masturbation.
When he was about 30 years of age his reserve, and his fear of
treachery and extortion, were at last overcome by an incident
which occurred late at night at the Royal Exchange, and again in
a dark recess in the gallery of the Olympic Theater when Gustavus
Brooke was performing. From that time the Adelphi Theater, the
Italian Opera, and the open parks at night became his fields of
adventure. He remarks that among people crowding to witness a
fire he found many opportunities. His especial intimates were a
railway clerk and an Italian model. In more recent years he has
chiefly found gratification among footmen and policemen.
He is exclusively passive; also likes mutual _fellatio_. He used
greatly to admire finely developed forms (conscious of his own
shortcomings), shapely limbs, and delicate brown hair, and always
admired strength and manly vigor. He never took any interest in
boys, and has always been indifferent to women.
HISTORY XXIV.--A medical man, English, aged 30. He believes that
his father, who was a magistrate, was very sympathetic toward
men; on several occasions he has sat with him on the bench when
cases of indecent assault were brought up; he discharged three
cases, although there could be little doubt as to their guilt,
and was very lenient to the others.
From the age of 9 he loved to sleep with his brother, ten years
older, who was in the navy;
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