ut sports
never interested me much. Literature became and is the passion
of my life and for some years has remained my sole occupation.

"At 8 years the sexual inversion began to manifest itself, though
till I had attained 10 years of age I was practically quite
innocent. At 8 years of age, my family removed to another country
and I made the acquaintance of a little boy who attracted me
sexually. We masturbated in company, without any reason except
the pleasure of seeing each other exposed. Then I had connection
with him _in anum_. This really at that time was an exception to
my ordinary tastes which speedily developed into an intense
desire of _fellatio_ and later on of intercrural pleasures. This
latter perhaps may be accounted for by the visit to our house of
a small boy with whom I slept for about a year. Every night
during this period, I had intercrural connection with him twice
and sometimes three times. Then came a consuming passion for all
young boys and very old men. Boys after 14 or 15 ceased to
attract me, more particularly when the hair of the pubes began to
develop. From 8 to 14, when first I had sexual emissions, I
masturbated at every opportunity. From 14 to 27, always once a
day, generally twice and sometimes three times a day. At 27 I
took rooms and formed acquaintance with the family occupying the
house. The boys, one by one, were allowed to sleep with me and I
conceived an extraordinary passion for one of them, an attachment
which lasted till I finally left England. The attachment was much
more that of a man for his wife and had nothing degrading in it.
I was wretched when away from him, and as he was very attached to
sport of all kinds I suffered 'divers kinds of death' each time
that I imagined his life to be endangered. I can honestly say
that in each of my attachments, and I have had many, the
prevailing sentiment was the delight of protecting a weaker being
than myself. Each person whom I have loved has been perfectly
normal and all are now fathers of families. Each still regards me
with affection and respect in spite of what has passed between
us. All my life I have been possessed with the passion for
paternity, I could almost say maternity. Willingly would I have
suffered the pains of hell could I have borne a son to the person
I loved. That I can