ds the attitude of society
toward those in his position as utterly unjust and founded on
false principles.
The next case is, like the foregoing, that of a successful man of letters
who also passed through a long period of mental conflict before he became
reconciled to his homosexual instincts. He belongs to a family who are all
healthy and have shown marked ability in different intellectual
departments. He feels certain that one of his brothers is as absolute an
invert as himself and that another is attracted to both sexes. I am
indebted to him for the following detailed narrative, describing his
emotions and experiences in childhood, which I regard as of very great
interest, not only as a contribution to the psychology of inversion, but
to the embryology of the sexual emotions generally. We here see described,
in an unduly precocious and hyperesthetic form, ideas and feelings which,
in a slighter and more fragmentary shape, may be paralleled in the early
experiences of many normal men and women. But it must be rare to find so
many points in sexual psychology so definitely illustrated in a single
child. It may be added that the narrative is also not without interest as
a study in the evolution of a man of letters; a child whose imagination
was thus early exercised and developed was predestined for a literary
career.
HISTORY XXI.--"Almost the earliest recollection I have is of a
dream, which, from my vivid recollection of its details, must
have repeated itself, I think, more than once, unless my waking
thoughts unconsciously added definition. From this dream dated my
consciousness of the attraction to me of my own sex, which has
ever since dominated my life. The dream, suggested in part, I
think, by a picture in an illustrated newspaper of a mob
murdering a church dignitary, took this form: I dreamed that I
saw my own father murdered by a gang of ruffians, but I do not
remember that I felt any grief, though I was actually an
exceedingly affectionate child. The body was then stripped of its
clothing and eviscerated. I had at the time no notion of
anatomical details; but the particulars remain distinct to my
mind's eye, of entrails uniformly brown, the color of dung, and
there was no accompaniment of blood. When the abdomen had been
emptied, the incident in which I became an active participant
occurred. I was seized (and the fact that I was o
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