w sparing
in our enjoyment of conjugal pleasure. We have had no children;
and I attribute this chiefly to the remaining sexual weakness in
myself.[220] But I may say that not only my sexual power, but my
nerve-power and general health, were greatly improved by
marriage; and though I have fallen back, the last year or two,
into a poor state of health, the cause of this is probably
overwork rather than anything to do with sex. Not but what it
must be said that, had it not been for the juvenile masturbation
superadded to a neuropathic temperament, my constitution would no
doubt have endured the general strain of life better than it has
done. The algolagnia, being one of the congenital conditions of
my sexual instinct, must be considered fundamental, and certainly
has not been eliminated. If I were to allow myself indulgence in
algolagnic reveries they would even now excite me without
difficulty; but I have systematically discouraged them, so that
they give me little or no practical trouble. My erotic dreams,
which years ago were (to the best of my remembrance) frequently
algolagnic, are now almost invariably normal.
"My conjugal relations have always been on the lines of strictly
normal sexuality. I have a deep sense of the obligations of
monogamous marriage, besides a sincere affection for my wife;
consequently I repress as far as possible all sexual
inclinations, such as will come involuntarily sometimes, toward
other women.
"From what I have disclosed, it will be seen that I am but a
frail man; but for many years I have striven honestly and hard to
discipline sexuality within myself, and to regulate it according
to right reason, pure hygiene, and the moral law; and I can but
hope and believe that the Divine Power in which I have endeavored
to trust will in the future, as it has done in the past, working
by natural methods and through the current events of my life,
amend and control my sex life and conduct it to safe and
honorable issues."
HISTORY II.--A.B., married, good general health, dark hair, fair
complexion, short-sighted, and below medium height. Parents both
belong to healthy families, but the mother suffered from nerves
during early years of married life, and the father, a very
energetic and ambitious man, was cold, passionless, and
unscrupulous. A
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