experiencing, almost
continually, violent erections. These were at first of an
auto-erotic character, and I masturbated myself, thus gaining
relief to my nerves. 2. I also found my thoughts tending toward
sexual images, and I felt a desire toward my nurse. I first
became conscious of this when I noticed that I experienced an
erection during the time that she was washing me. I mentioned the
matter to my doctor, who told me not to worry, and said the
symptoms were usual in the circumstances. 3. When I got up and
about I found myself desiring very keenly to have intercourse
with my wife. I can almost say that I felt more sexually excited
than I had done for four or five years. As soon, however, as I
had had intercourse with my wife a few times I felt my desire
toward her cease. 4. My thoughts now centered on having a woman
to do _fellatio_, and as soon as I was well enough to go out I
got a prostitute to do this.

"Just before I was ill my wife had a child, which was born with
more than one abnormality. No doubt the shock and worry caused by
this got me into a low state and predisposed me to my illness.
But the consequences were farther reaching still. The child
underwent an operation, and my wife had to take her away into the
country for nearly six weeks, so as to give her better air. I was
left alone in London, for the first time since my marriage. The
worry in connection with the child, and the heavy expense, served
to keep me nervously upset after I had apparently recovered
physically from the illness. Once more I found myself thinking
about women. As an additional factor in the situation I became
friendly with an old college-chum whom I had not seen much of for
many years. He lived the life of a fashionable young bachelor and
was at the time keeping a woman. The only common interest between
us was women. I found myself reverting to the old condition of
rampant lust that had been such a curse to me in my university
days. Some books he lent me had a decided effect. They gave me
erections; and it was on top of the excitement thus engendered
that one day I got a woman to do _fellatio_, as already
mentioned. Moreover, since my illness, I found all my previous
energy and ambition had gone.

"I have stated that I was in London alone with two servants. The
housemaid was a y