ck.' She was very sensual. On one occasion, between 11
P.M. and about midday the following day I experienced the orgasm
eleven or twelve times.
"During term time I was often prevented from having women by want
of money and absence from London. I considered myself lucky if I
could have a woman once or twice a month. My allowance was not
large enough to admit of such luxuries; and I was only able to do
what I did by being economical in my general expenditure and
living, and by running up bills for whatever I could get on
credit. I lived in the hopes of picking up 'amateurs' who would
give me what I wanted for the love of it and without payment. My
efforts were not very successful at present, except in the case
of M.S. I considered myself very lucky in having discovered her,
and I should have stuck to her for longer but for the rival
attraction of another. There was, however, no deep sentiment on
either side.
"But in order to preserve a continuity in my account of the
women, I have left out two cases of temporary reversion to
homosexual practices. During the periods when I could not get a
woman I had recourse once more to masturbation. At times I had
'wet dreams' in which boys figured; and my thoughts, in waking
hours, sometimes reverted to memories of my school experiences. I
think, however, that I should have preferred a woman."
The homosexual reversions were as follows:--
"1. I had arranged to meet a shopgirl one evening, outside the
town. She did not turn up. The meeting place was a railway
bridge. Waiting there too, a few feet from me, was a boy of about
15. He was employed (I afterward found) by a gardener, and was
waiting to meet his brother, who was engaged on the line. I got
into casual conversation with him, and suddenly found myself
wondering whether he ever masturbated. With a feeling, that I can
only describe by calling it an intuition, I moved nearer him, and
asked: 'Do you ever play with yourself?' He did not seem
surprised at the abruptness of my question, and answered 'yes.' I
thereupon touched his penis, and _found he had an erection_! I
suggested retiring to a bench that was near. We sat down. I
masturbated him till he experienced the orgasm; then
intercrurally. I gave him a shilling, and said good night.
"2. During my last summer at the univer
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