n the direction of
normality. The instinct for sodomy in the proper sense of the
word used to be unintelligible to me; since the object of
attraction has become a woman this instinct is mixed with the
normal in my desire. Further, an element which much troubled me,
as being most foreign to my ideal feelings, has not quite left
me--the indecent and often scatologic curiosity about immature
girls. I can only hope that the realization of the normal in
marriage may finally kill these painful aberrations. I should add
that the practice of masturbation has been abandoned."
HISTORY XII.--Aged 24. Father and mother both living; the latter
is of a better social standing than the father. He is much
attached to his mother, and she gives him some sympathy. He has a
brother who is normally attracted to women. He himself has never
been attracted to women, and takes no interest in them nor in
their society.
At the age of 4 he first became conscious of an attraction for
older males. From the ages of 11 and 19, at a large
grammar-school, he had relationships with about one hundred boys.
Needless to add, he considers homosexuality extremely common in
schools. It was, however, the Oscar Wilde case which first opened
his eyes to the wide prevalence of homosexuality, and he
considers that the publicity of that case has done much, if not
to increase homosexuality, at all events to make it more
conspicuous and outspoken.
He is now attracted to youths about 5 or 6 years younger than
himself; they must be good-looking. He has never perverted a boy
not already inclined to homosexuality. In his relationship he
does not feel exclusively like a male or a female: sometimes one,
sometimes the other. He is often liked, he says, because of his
masculine character.
He is fully developed and healthy, well over middle height,
inclined to be plump, with full face and small moustache. He
smokes many cigarettes and cannot get on without them. Though his
manners are very slightly if at all feminine, he acknowledges
many feminine ways. He is fond of jewelry, until lately always
wore a bangle, and likes women's rings; he is very particular
about fine ties, and uses very delicate women's handkerchiefs. He
has always had a taste for music, and sings. He has a special
predilection for green; it is t
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