is occurred was
when I was hurrying to avoid being late for school. Another time
was when I was about 24, and was extremely anxious to fill an
appointment for which I was late. So copious was the emission
that I had to go home and change.

"As a medical student, the first reference bearing definitely on
the subject of sexual inversion was made in the class of Medical
Jurisprudence, where certain sexual crimes were alluded to--very
summarily and inadequately--but nothing was said of the existence
of sexual inversion as the 'normal' condition of certain unhappy
people, nor was any distinction drawn between the various
non-normal acts, which were all classed together as
manifestations of the criminal depravity of ordinary or insane
people. To a student beginning to be acutely conscious that his
sexual nature differed profoundly from that of his fellows,
nothing could be more perplexing and disturbing, and it shut me
up more completely in my reserve than ever. I felt that this
teaching must be based on some radical error or prejudice or
misapprehension, for I knew from my own very clear remembrance of
my own development that my peculiarity was not acquired, but
inborn; my great misfortune undoubtedly, but not my fault.

"It was still more unfortunate that in the course of the lectures
on Clinical Medicine there was not the slightest allusion to the
subject. All sorts of rare diseases--some of which I have not yet
met with in the course of twenty-one years of a busy
practice--were fully discussed, but we were left entirely
ignorant of a subject so vitally important to me personally, and,
as it seems to me, to the profession to which I aspired. There
might have been an incidental reference to masturbation--although
I do not remember it--but its real significance received no
attention; and what we students knew of it was the result of our
reading or of our personal experiences.

"In the class of Mental Disease there was, naturally, more
detailed and systematic reference to facts in the sexual life and
to sexual inversion as a rare pathological condition. But still
there was not a comforting word to reassure me, growing ever more
hopelessly ashamed of what it seemed was a criminal or a gravely
morbid nature.

"Among all my fellow-students I knew of no one constituted like