a relationship with another man of similar
temperament--not a platonic one, necessarily--by means of which
the highest happiness of both may be reached. But this can occur
_very_ seldom.

"To poetry and the fine arts I am very susceptible, and I have
given a great deal of time to this study. I am devoted heart and
soul to music, which is more and more to me every year I live.
Trivial or light music I cannot endure, but of Beethoven, Bach,
Haendel, Schumann, Schubert, Brahms, Tschaikowsky, and Wagner I
should never hear enough. Here, too, my sympathies, are very
catholic, and I delight in McDowell, Debussy, Richard Strauss,
and Hugo Wolf."

HISTORY VII.--"My parentage is very sound and healthy. Both my
parents (who belong to the professional middle class) have good
general health; nor can I trace any marked abnormal or diseased
tendency, of mind or body, in any records of the family.

"Though of a strongly nervous temperament myself, and sensitive,
my health is good. I am not aware of any tendency to physical
disease. In early manhood, however, owing, I believe, to the
great emotional tension under which I lived, my nervous system
was a good deal shattered and exhausted. Mentally and morally my
nature is pretty well balanced, and I have never had any serious
perturbations in these departments.

"At the age of 8 or 9, and long before distinct sexual feelings
declared themselves, I felt a friendly attraction toward my own
sex, and this developed after the age of puberty into a
passionate sense of love, which, however, never found any
expression for itself till I was fully 20 years of age. I was a
day-boarder at school and heard little of school-talk on sex
subjects, was very reserved and modest besides; no elder person
or parent ever spoke to me on such matters; and the passion for
my own sex developed gradually, utterly uninfluenced from the
outside. I never even, during all this period, and till a good
deal later, learned the practice of masturbation. My own sexual
nature was a mystery to me. I found myself cut off from the
understanding of others, felt myself an outcast, and, with a
highly loving and clinging temperament, was intensely miserable.
I thought about my male friends--sometimes boys of my own age,
sometimes elder boys, and once even a master--during the