e man, and the boy confided in a
boy friend, with whom he tried to ascertain by personal
experience what the "good feeling" was like, but they were too
young to derive any pleasure from the attempt beyond the joy of
what was instinctively felt to be "eating forbidden fruit."

From this period his sexual tendencies began to become fixed and
self-conscious. He has never at any period of life had a moment's
conscious sexual attraction toward a person of the opposite sex.
His warmest friendships have, indeed, been with women and much,
perhaps most, of the happiness he has enjoyed has been furnished
by those friendships. But passion has only been aroused by
persons of his own sex, generally by men much younger than
himself. He feels shy and uncomfortable in the presence of men
of his own age. But even at his present age, a touch of a man or
boy may cause the liveliest gratification.

Shortly after the incident in boyhood, already narrated, A.H.
induced a little boy companion to go to a quiet spot, where, at
A.H.'s suggestion, each placed the other's penis in his mouth by
turns. A.H. had never heard of such a proceeding. It was a
natural instinct. He began to masturbate at an early age. But he
soon found a companion to share his passion. An older man,
especially, married and with a family, became his accomplice on
every possible opportunity, and they would manipulate each other.
At the age of 21, _fellatio_ began to be practised with this man.
It became a lifelong practice, and the preferred method of sexual
gratification. He likes best to have it performed on himself, but
he has never asked anyone to do for him what he would not himself
do for the other if desired. There has never been _pedicatio_.
The penis, it may be added, is of good size, and the testicles
rather large.

No one has ever suspected A.H.'s sexual perversion, not even his
physician, with whom he has long had a close friendship, until at
a time of great mental distress A.H. voluntarily revealed his
state. He is accustomed to refined society, has always read much,
abhorred athletic pursuits, and loved poetry, children, and
flowers. His love of nature amounts, indeed, to a passion.
Wherever he has been he has made friends among the best people.
He confesses to occasional periods of addiction to intoxicants,