served people, but more genial with strangers, more socially
inclined, and with less self-control.

"I was an only child and a spoilt one. I was always quick at
school, fond of learning, and finding my lessons no trouble.
Serious study I disliked. But for school purposes I did not find
it necessary, and had no difficulty in carrying all before me. I
was never fond of games, although very fond of being out of doors
and of walking. Few of my relatives have been at all keen on
sport. I made no close friendships at school and was never very
popular with my schoolfellows, who, however, tolerated my odd
ways better than might have been expected. I was easily brought
to appreciate good literature, but I never had much power of
expression or of strenuous thought. I was extremely susceptible
and impressible, moved by beauty of any kind, but never at all
ambitious or in any way creative. I was easily stimulated to
work, and then loved to work; but, unless the stimulus were
maintained the natural indolence of my disposition asserted
itself, and I wasted my powers in dreams and trifles. My memory
was very quick and retentive, in the main, but curiously
capricious. I always lacked initiative and decision. At college
my successes were continued. I gained medals and prizes, passed
my examinations easily, and graduated 'with first-class honors.'
In my professional lifework I have been successful rather beyond
the average. I love it with all my heart.

"I cannot speak with any confidence about the first stirrings of
my sexual instincts, but I think I can assert that they have at
no time led me to any desire for the opposite sex. It is true
that my earliest recollection of the kind is concerned with
intimacies with a girl play-fellow, but as we had at the time
reached only the mature age of 7 (at the most) I fancy that our
mutual exhibitions--for there was nothing more--simply satisfied
our natural curiosity. Certainly these memories are, in my mind,
in no way set apart from the recollections of other kinds of
play. Next to that I remember the usual schoolboy talk about
things hidden and forbidden, but up till I was 12 or so this was
simply dirty talk, concerned more with renal and intestinal
functions than with any sexual feelings or understanding. One boy
was known to us all (and of my no