ent, and is prepared to defend the practice in his own case.
His erotic dreams have been of only the vaguest and most shadowy
character. He is able to whistle. He takes a warm interest in
politics and in philanthropic work. But his chief love is for
music and he has published many musical compositions. On the
whole, and notwithstanding the persecution he has endured, he
does not regard his life as unhappy. At the same time he is
keenly conscious of the atmosphere of "Pariahdom" which surrounds
inverts, and in his own case this has never been alleviated by
any sense of companionship in misery. The facility with which
some inverts are said to recognize others of their own kind is
quite incomprehensible to him; he has never to his knowledge met
one.
HISTORY VI.--E.S., physician, aged 50.
"I have some reason," he writes, "for believing that some of my
relatives (on the paternal side) were not normal in their sexual
life. But I am sure that no such suspicion was entertained by
their friends or associates; they were very reticent people. A
great proportion of my near relatives have remained unmarried or
deferred marriage until late in life. None of them have been good
business men; all seem to have been more deeply concerned in
other things than in making--or in keeping--money. They have
mostly taken little or no share in public life, and not cared
much for society. Yet they have been folk of more than average
ability, with intellectual and aesthetic interests. We are prone
to enthusiasms, but lack perseverance. We are discursive and
superficial, perhaps, but none would call us stupid. We are
perhaps abnormally self-centered and self-conscious--never cruel
or vicious. Our powers of self-control are considerable; we are
conventional people only because we are lazy and intensely
dislike any open self-assertion. Yet we are nervous rather than
phlegmatic. All that is on the father's side. My maternal
ancestors have been concerned with farming and the sea and have
also had a similar lack of business capacity, but with less
mental adaptiveness and alertness, with more steadiness of
purpose, however, always doers rather than dreamers. Among them I
remember one cousin who was probably abnormal, although he died
when I was too young to notice much. Again, they were all rather
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