ful that I have a chair to sit in,
limbs free from palsy, books of all sorts to be read, and kind friends
to read. Oh, yes; let me be _thankful_. A. brought "School-days at
Rugby." _22d._--Eddy began to wear his coat! A. read to me Tom Brown's
"School-days." _23d._--LOVE is the word that fills my horizon to-day.
God is Love; I must be like Him. _Feb. 3d._--How lovely seem the
words DUTY and KIGHT! How I long to be spotless--all pure within and
without!... Albert read from Adolph Monod. What a precious book!
_23d._--To-morrow I shall be forty-six years old. If I said one hundred
I should believe it as well. _24th._--My birthday.... I feel disposed to
take as my motto for this year, "I will hope continually, and will yet
praise Thee _more and more_" Eddy began Virgil to-day. _27th._--Woke
with a strong impression that I am Christ's, His servant, and as such
have nothing to do for myself--no separate interest. Oh, to feel this
and _act_ upon it always. And not _only_ a servant, but a _child_; and
therefore entitled to feel an interest in the affairs of the _Family_.
Albert read from the Silent Comforter the piece called "Wearisome
Nights," which is an exact expression of my state and feelings. Long
to do some good, at least by praying for people. A note from Mrs.
C. Stoddard to my husband and myself, which was truly refreshing.
_26th._--This morning God assisted me out of great weakness to converse
and pray with my beloved child. He also prayed. I can not but entertain
a trembling hope that he is indeed a Christian. So great a mercy would
fill me with transport.

_April 6th._--"I love the Lord because He hath heard my voice and my
supplication" (Ps. cxvi. I). Albert read this psalm to me nearly fifteen
years ago, the morning of the day succeeding that on which God had
delivered me out of great danger and excruciating sufferings and had
given us a _living child_. Our hearts swelled with thankfulness then;
now we have received our child a second time--anew _gift_. _June
8th._--A.'s holiday. First strawberry! and first rose! (cinnamon).

_July 3d._--Oh, my dear, dear sister Lizzy! Shall I never see you again
in this world? I fancied I was familiar with the thought and reconciled
to it, but now it agonizes me. [6]

_Dec. 26th._--I do long to submit to--no, to accept joyfully--the will
of God in everything; to see only Love in every trial. But to be made a
whip in His hand with which to scourge others--I, who so passionately