entered
my mind. Needless to say, I did not sleep with him.

"I never feel tempted by any girls here, although I see so many
with their bodies freely exposed, and plenty of them have really
pretty faces. Neither do I feel tempted to do anything improper
with any of the boys, although I frequently sit talking with one
who has very little on. But I find the constant sight of
well-shaped bare limbs has a curious effect on the mind and comes
before one's imagination as a picture at unlooked-for times. But
the most curious thing of all is this: There are several lads
here of whom I am very fond. Now when they are near me I think of
them with only the purest and most tender feelings, but sometimes
at night when I am half asleep, or when I am taking my midday
siesta, my imagination pictures one of these lads approaching a
girl, or actually lying with her, and the strange thing is that I
do not feel any desire myself to approach the girl, but I feel I
wish I were in _her_ place and the lad was coming to _me_. In my
calm, waking moments it disgusts and rather horrifies me to find
myself apparently so unsexed--yet such is the fact, and the
experience, with only slight changes, repeats itself over and
over again. It is not that I, as a man, wish even in imagination
to act improperly with a boy, but I feel I would like to be in
the girl's place, and the strange thing is that in all these
dreams and imaginings I can always apparently enter into the
feelings of the woman better than into those of the man.
Sometimes I fancy for a moment that perhaps reincarnation is true
and I was a woman in my last life. Sometimes I fancy that when I
was in the womb I was formed as a girl and the sexual organs
changed just at the last moment. It is a curious problem. Don't
think I worry about it. Only at long intervals do I think of
it.... The thing has its bright side. Boys and men seem to have
tender feelings toward me, such as one expects them to have for
members of the opposite sex, and I get into all the closer
contact with them in consequence."

HISTORY III.--F.R., English, aged 50, Belongs on both sides to
healthy, normal families, of more than average ability. Father
was 35 at birth, and mother 27. He is the second of four
children. There was a considerable interval between the births of