r in
the sequel, and was at that time enjoyed at a considerable expense; for
I devoted myself so entirely to my lover, who was desirous of engrossing
my time and thoughts, that my acquaintance, which was very numerous,
justly accused me of neglect, and of consequence cooled in their
friendships; but I was 'all for love, or the world well lost;' and were
the same opportunity to offer, I would act the same conduct over again.

"Some there are who possibly may wonder how I could love twice with such
violence of affection. But all such observers must be unacquainted with
the human heart. Mine was naturally adapted for the tender passions, and
had been so fortunate, so cherished in its first impressions, that it
felt with joy the same sensations revive, when influenced by the same
engaging qualifications. Certain it is, I loved the second time as well
as the first, and better was impossible. I gave up my all for both:
fortune and my father's favour for the one; reputation, friends, and
fortune for the other. Yet, notwithstanding this intimate connection,
I did not relinquish the world all at once; on the contrary, I still
appeared at court, and attracted the notice and approbation of my royal
patroness; I danced with the P-- of W--; a circumstance which so nearly
affected Mr. S--, who was present, that, in order to manifest his
resentment, he chose the ugliest woman in the ball for his partner; and
I no sooner perceived his uneasiness, than I gave over, with a view of
appeasing his displeasure.

"Without repeating particular circumstances, let it suffice to say, our
mutual passion was a perfect copy of that which had subsisted between
me and my dear Lord W--. It was jealous, melting and delicate, and
chequered with little accident, which serve to animate and maintain
the flame, in its first ardency of rapture. When my lover was sick,
I attended and nursed him with indefatigable tenderness and care; and
during an indisposition, which I caught in the performance of this
agreeable office, he discharged the obligation with all the warmth of
sympathy and love.

"It was, however, judged necessary by the physicians, that I should use
the Bath waters for the recovery of my health; and I set out for that
place, glad of a pretence to be absent from Lord ----, with whom I lived
on very unhappy terms. He had, about nine months after our marriage,
desired that we might sleep in separate beds, and gave a very whimsical
reason for this