r had no sooner left me, than I was
removed to a hunting seat belonging to my lover, from whence, after I
had recovered my strength, we went to B-- castle, where we kept open
house. And, while we remained at this place, Lord B-- received a letter
from Lord --, dated in November, challenging him to single combat in
May, upon the frontiers of France and Flanders. This defiance was
sent in consequence of what had passed between them long before my
indisposition, at a meeting in a certain tavern, where they quarrelled,
and in the fray, my lover threw his antagonist under the table. I
counselled him to take no notice of this rhodomontade, which I knew was
void of all intention of performance; and he was wise enough to follow
my advice, resolved, however, should the message be repeated, to take
the challenger at his word.

"Having resided some time at this place, we returned to the other
country house which he had left, where Lord B-- addicted himself so
much to hunting, and other male diversions, that I began to think he
neglected me, and apprised him of my suspicion, assuring him, at the
same time, that I would leave him as soon as my opinion should be
confirmed. This declaration had no effect upon his behaviour, which
became so remarkably cold, that even Mr. R--, who lived with us,
imagined that his affection was palpably diminished. When I went to
town, I was usually attended by his cousin, or this gentleman, or both,
but seldom favoured with his company; nay, when I repaired to Bath, for
the re-establishment of my health, he permitted me to go alone; so that
I was quite persuaded of his indifference; and yet I was mistaken in my
opinion. But I had been spoiled by the behaviour of my first husband,
and Mr. S--, who never quitted me for the sake of any amusement, and
often resisted the calls of the most urgent business, rather than part
from me, though but for a few hours. I thought every man who loved me
truly would act in the same manner; and, whether I am right or wrong
in my conjectures, I leave wiser casuists to judge. Certain it is,
such sacrifice and devotion is the most pleasing proof of an admirer's
passion; and, Voyez-moi plus souvent, et ne me donnez rien, is one of my
favourite maxims. A man may give money, because he is profuse; he may
be violently fond, because he is of a sanguine constitution. But, if he
gives me his time, he gives me an unquestionable proof of my being in
full possession of his heart.

"M