were made good; while I returned
to Brussels, where I stayed until my departure for England, which I
regulated in such a manner as was consistent with my engagement.

"I took lodgings in Pall-mall, and, sending for my lord, convinced him
of my punctuality, and put him in mind of his promise, when, to my utter
astonishment and confusion, he owned, that his promise was no more than
a decoy to bring me over, and that I must lay my account with living
in his house like a dutiful and obedient wife. I heard him with the
indignation such treatment deserved, upbraiding him with his perfidious
dealing, which I told him would have determined me against cohabitation
with him had I not been already resolved; and, being destitute of all
resource, repaired to Bath, where I afterwards met with Mr. D-- and Mr.
R--, two gentlemen who had been my fellow-passengers in the yacht from
Flanders, and treated me with great friendship and politeness, without
either talking or thinking of love.

"With these gentlemen, who were as idle as myself, I went to the jubilee
at Preston, which was no other than a great number of people assembled
in a small town, extremely ill-accommodated, to partake of diversions
that were bad imitations of plays, concerts, and masquerades. If the
world should place to the account of my indiscretion my travelling in
this manner with gentlemen to whom I had no particular attachment, let
it also be considered, as an alleviation, that I always lived in terror
of my lord, and consequently was often obliged to shift my quarters; so
that, my finances being extremely slender, I stood the more in need of
assistance and protection. I was, besides, young, inconsiderate, and so
simple, as to suppose the figure of an ugly man would always secure
me from censure on his account; neither did I ever dream of any man's
addresses, until he made an actual declaration of his love.

"Upon my return to Bath, I was again harassed by Lord --, who came
thither accompanied by my father, whom I was very glad to see, though
he importuned me to comply with my husband's desire, and for the future
keep measures with the world. This remonstrance about living with
my lord, which he constantly repeated, was the only instance of his
unkindness which I ever felt. But all his admonitions were not of force
sufficient to shake my resolution in that particular; though the debate
continued so late, that I told his lordship, it was high time to
retire, for I