might not increase his anxiety, I left Paris
immediately on the receipt of his message, and met him at the appointed
place, where he received me with all the agitation of joy and fear,
and asked if I had ever encouraged Sir T-- A-- in his addresses. I very
candidly told him the whole transaction, at which he was incensed; but
his indignation was soon appeased, when I professed my penitence, and
assured him that I had totally rejected his rival. Not that I approved
of my behaviour to Sir T--, who, I own, was ill-used in this affair; but
surely it was more excusable to halt here, than proceed farther in my
indiscretion.
"My lover being satisfied with my declaration, we went together to
Paris, being attended by the Scotchman, whom I have already mentioned,
though I believe he was not over and above well pleased to see matters
thus amicably compromised. The furious knight followed us to the
capital; insisted on seeing me in person; told this North Briton, that
I was actually engaged to him; wrote every hour, and railed at my
perfidious conduct. I took no notice of these delirious transports,
which were also disregarded by Lord B--, till, one night, he was
exasperated by the insinuations of Mr. C--, who, I believe, inflamed
his jealousy, by hinting a suspicion that I was really in love with his
rival. What passed betwixt them I know not, but he sent for me from the
opera, by a physician of Paris, who was a sort of go-between among us
all, and who told me, that, if I did not come home in the instant, a
duel would be fought on my account.
"I was very much shocked at this information; but, by being used to
alarms from the behaviour of Lord --, I had acquired a pretty good share
of resolution, and with great composure entered the room where Lord B--
was, with his companion, whom I immediately ordered to withdraw. I then
gave his lordship to understand, that I was informed of what had passed,
and thought myself so much injured by the person who had just quitted
the apartment, that I would no longer live under the same roof with
him. Lord B-- raved like a bedlamite, taxing me with want of candour and
affection; but I easily justified my own integrity, and gave him such
assurances of my love, that his jealousy subsided, and his spirits were
recomposed. Nevertheless, I insisted upon his dismissing Mr. C--, on
pain of my leaving the house, as I could not help thinking he had used
his endeavours to prejudice me in the opinion of m
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