ough to foresee, that I should never be able to
overcome his indifference.

"I took lodgings in Mount-street, and my maid having disposed of herself
in marriage, hired another, who supplied her place very much to my
satisfaction. She was a good girl, had a particular attachment to
me, and for many years, during which she lived in my service, was
indefatigably assiduous in contributing to my ease, or rather in
alleviating my affliction. For, though S-- came up to town according to
promise, and renewed a sort of correspondence with me for the space of
five months, his complaisance would extend no farther; and he gave me
to understand, that he had determined to go abroad with Mr. V--; whom he
accordingly accompanied in his envoying to D--.

"I understood the real cause of this expedition, which, notwithstanding
his oaths and protestations of unabated love and regard, I construed
into a palpable mark of dislike and disrespect; nor could the repeated
assurances I received from him in letters mitigate the anguish and
mortification that preyed upon my heart. I therefore gave up all hopes
of recovering the happiness I had lost. I told him on the eve of his
departure, that he might exercise his gallantry a great while, before he
would meet with my fellow, in point of sincerity and love; for I would
rather have been a servant in his house, with the privilege of seeing
him, than the queen of England debarred of that pleasure.

"When he took his leave, and went down-stairs, I shrunk at every step he
made, as if a new wound had been inflicted upon me and when I heard the
door shut behind him, my heart died within me. I had the satisfaction
to hear afterwards, he lamented the loss of me prodigiously, and that he
had never been so happy since. I sat down to write a letter, in which I
forgave his indifference, because I knew the affections are altogether
involuntary, and wished him all the happiness he deserved. I then walked
up and down the room in the most restless anxiety, was put to bed by my
maid, rose at six, mounted my horse and rode forty miles, in order to
fatigue myself that I might next night enjoy some repose. This exercise
I daily underwent for months together; and, when it did not answer my
purpose, I used to walk round Hyde-park in the evening, when the place
was quite solitary and unvisited by any other human creature.

"In the course of this melancholy perambulation, I was one day accosted
by a very great man, who,