e was the least smear of blood. I had pushed through something
tight to get into her, but it was an easy business, so easy that I
thought she had had cock before; but she was large cunted, the very
jagged, ragged tear was full size; her cunt-hair was dark, her bum was
one of the biggest for her height I have seen, it was out of proportion.
Her privates did not fascinate me, and when I had had her two or three
dozen times I grew tired of her. She was also bandy-legged, a thing I
never could bear in a woman.

She went to Sarah's that day, and remained there, her mother sent to
know why. Sarah said that Esther had had bowel attack after they came
home from the theatre, and her mother then went to see her. A girl
always looks ill after her first poking, and Esther had been fucked out,
so her mother was taken in. Her sister Matilda said she did not believe
it.

Sarah I found had been gay, and said she now was married; they did not
believe that, though they kept their disbelief to themselves, and only
Esther knew she had been gay, although all knew she had run away from
home. Sarah got her living by washing for Esther's mother. I heard some
funny things about her afterwards.

I could not get Esther to stop out again all night, but she met me often
enough, and became a baudy little bitch whose cunt much wanted feeding.
She told me the awful state of mind she and her sister were in at my
first overhearing them with the barrow; they had been talking of fucking
all that day, Sarah had begun it. Taking hold of some linen, "Oh! my,"
she said, "look here, ain't they been a doing it!---here is
waste." There was spunk on the linen. I heard a good deal of choice
washerwoman's talk from Esther afterwards, and found that it was not an
unusual thing for laundresses to joke about the semen they found on the
linen of their customers, and that if they found suspicious signs on
the man's linen, to give the lady of the house a hint to look after
her husband. Many a husband has I am sure been discovered to have had
illicit pleasure, or to have the ladies' favor through the hints of an
officious laundress.

I made Esther liberal presents, but didn't take her much to Vauxhall or
theatres, although she was constantly asking me to do so. I had taken
her to Vauxhall one night after I had first had her, and saw some one
there whom I should have been sorry to have seen me with Esther. We went
to the little snug, quiet accommodation house which had