st, and I bought it. She gave me one day a
photograph of herself; both had the characteristic opening of the lips
well shown. It is only recently that I have destroyed these mementos of
a dead affection.

When I saw that nothing would keep her in England I did my best to
help her enterprise, gave her money freely, paid for dresses, boots,
travelling cloaks, children's dresses, and in brief for everything.
During the nine months I had known her she in fact ran me dry, and in
debt. I spent upon her more than I could have lived on for four years
at the rate I lived at just before I met her. But I was now in better
circumstances than I had been for years, and the money was my own.

As the time approached, I could neither sleep nor eat, and used to be
at J... s Street hours before I knew she could come; would wait any
time for her, treating Hannah and the ladies, and doing nothing but talk
about Sarah. Sometimes I used to think about following her abroad. When
she came to the house, I used to spend my time in crying, and she after
telling me not to be foolish, would cry too. Then, "Oh! let me see you
naked." "There then." Then came kisses all over her body. "Oh! now for
God's sake don't spend in me." Then came a delicious fuck; then crying
and moaning recommenced. She left a week at least before she had said
she should, and did so to prevent me the pain of parting with her,--I
must give her that credit. Hannah told me so.

I had arranged to see her one morning, and was as usual there before
my time. Hannah stepped out from the parlour. "Has Sarah come?" She
beckoned me into the parlour. "Why they all sailed this morning,--my
sister went to see them off,--did you not know?" I staggered to the
sofa dizzy, speechless, then senseless. When I came to myself Hannah was
standing besides me with brandy and water and a spoon with which she was
putting it into my mouth.

"Don't take on so," said she, "don't think any more about Sarah,--she is
a fine woman, but there are lots as good,--I know a dozen, and any one
would be glad to know a man like you,--have some brandy and water,"--and
she took a great gulp herself. "There now," said she bending over me.
"would you like to see Mrs.------, she who met you the other night in
here with Sarah,--she has taken quite a fancy to you,--don't cry. Sarah
will come back, and if she don't you'll get another woman whom you will
like as well. There is Mrs.------, a splendid shaped woman who only se