" when she spoke of
my sperm,--Sarah called it "muck".

Though I had had such lots of women, and had heard of most things,
yet simple, straightforward fucking had engrossed me, I rarely had
out-of-the-way lusts and letches, and I never thought to ask if her
friend buggered or sucked her, or if she sucked him, or what little
amusements they were up to. At all events she must have satisfied him
some way, for he had known her she said some years. A man was likely to
stick to Louisa, for she was a magnificent piece of flesh, from her neck
to her ankles.

So I believed Louisa, and felt interested in her belly beginning to
swell, but did not want the young one, or the troubles of paternity, or
to get her into trouble; besides I had no affection for her, though I
liked fucking her better and better.

Louisa then was away ill; I saw her again when her womb was cleared out,
and we took to fucking as usual. One day in baudy vagaries we had been
posturing, and she straddled across my face, bringing her cunt right on
to my mouth, and my nose to her bum, she had been asking me if I ever
kissed Sarah in any way but the straight one. She began kissing my pega
as she lay on the top of me, I kissed her buttocks, but took no hint, if
any were intended. She was very heavy, and I noticed for the first time
a strongish odour from her cunt which annoyed me; afterwards I used
often to fancy she had a strong smell about her quim, and was fool
enough to tell her so, which offended her? but we made it up.

After a little time she began asking me if I had not forgotten
Sarah,--did I love her as much?--did I long to have her again?--did she
(Louisa) not give me as much pleasure as Sarah? I had then got over my
desolation a little, and only thought of Sarah and her exquisite form
with a sigh, was annoyed that she had not written to me, and I began to
confess to myself, that for fucking, Sarah was not to be compared with
Louisa. Then I began to wonder at my having been so infatuated, and
let it out to Louisa one night. She said she wished I would keep
_her_,--three pounds a week, and she would make it do, and so on; and I
began to think seriously about the matter, for the expenses at the baudy
house were nearly that amount; and although my delicate senses had began
to revolt at the strong smell of Louisa, yet her voluptuousness was
enticing, and was making me actually constant to her. I had quite left
off my Mulatto, Brighton Bessie, and one or