rn afterwards.

"What is the time?" "Ten o'clock." "I must go." "Another poke." "Make
haste then." We had it. "Oh! now don't keep me,--if I'm not home by
half-past ten I shall be half murdered." She had let expressions like
that drop more than once; but I got no explanation excepting that she
lived with her father and mother,--and at that time I believed it.

At the next meeting she had her old quiet manner, her old "keep your
distance" was attempted; but it was impossible. A woman must always
give again what she has once given, she cannot help it. Then came more
dinners, but she was more cautious now in what she ate and drank, less
reckless in her embraces of me; but we were closer acquaintances than
we had been; she let me pull her about more freely and as a matter of
course, washed her quim without hiding herself for that operation, and
so on,--yet still she held me at a great distance, and was reserved. She
conquered me, in a degree.

In fact she did pretty well what she liked with me; saw me when she
liked, stopped with me as long as she thought proper, let me fuck her
just as often as she liked, and no more (and it was rarely she let me
do that more than once a day), see to her knees, or to her cunt, or pull
her about just in the degree she for the time thought fit to permit. I
grumbled, said I would see more complaisant women. "Well I might if I
liked,"--but I did not. Her indifference to sexual pleasure chilled and
annoyed me and for a reason I never could understand, her cunt never
seemed quite to fit me, nor fetch me with the voluptuousness that scores
of other women have done. Yet I saw her almost exclusively for three
years, and when she gave herself up to pleasure with me, my delight was
unbounded; when she let me have her with her cunt unwashed after our
first copulation, I thought of it for days afterwards. Altogether
she had her way with me in a manner I did not see, and have only
comprehended since.

This went on for some months. Whether she had other male friends or not
I don't know, but I never found her in Regent Street or other places
where I had once been able to find her, after I began to see her
regularly, and have reason to think that she ceased casuals after she
had me, and perchance another, that is all. Hannah said often at a
future day that I was her only friend.

I have not yet described her. She was of perfect height for a woman, say
five feet seven, her form from her chin to her toe-