has never masturbated. Occasionally, but very rarely, she has
had dreams of riding accompanied by pleasurable sexual emotions
(she cannot recall any actual experience to suggest this, though
fond of riding). She has never had any kind of sexual dreams
about a man; of late years she has occasionally had erotic dreams
about women.
Her feeling toward men is friendly, but she has never had sexual
attraction toward a man. She likes them as good comrades, as men
like each other. She enjoys the society of men on account of
their intellectual attraction. She is herself very active in
social and intellectual work. Her feeling toward marriage has
always been one of repugnance. She can, however, imagine a man
whom she could love or marry.
She is attracted to womanly women, sincere, reserved, pure, but
courageous in character. She is not attracted to intellectual
women, but at the same time cannot endure silly women. The
physical qualities that attract her most are not so much beauty
of face as a graceful, but not too slender, body with beautiful
curves. The women she is drawn to are usually somewhat younger
than herself. Women are much attracted to her, and without any
effort on her part. She likes to take the active part and
protecting role with them. She is herself energetic in character,
and with a somewhat neurotic temperament.
She finds sexual satisfaction in tenderly touching, caressing,
and kissing the loved one's body. (There is no _cunnilinctus_,
which she regards with abhorrence.) She feels more tenderness
than passion. There is a high degree of sexual erethism when
kissing, but orgasm is rare and is produced by lying on the
friend or by the friend lying on her, without any special
contact. She likes being herself kissed, but not so much as
taking the active part.
She believes that homosexual love is morally right when it is
really part of a person's nature, and provided that the nature of
homosexual love is always made plain to the object of such
affection. She does not approve of it as a mere makeshift, or
expression of sensuality, in normal women. She has sometimes
resisted the sexual expression of her feelings, once for years at
a time, but always in vain. The effect on her of loving women is
distinctly good, she asserts, both spiritually and physically,
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