fied she had to sit down and Resi hurried to get her a glass of
water, because she believed she was going to faint. I had not imagined
it was anything like _that_, and Dora certainly had not either. Or she
would never have trembled so. Still I really don't see why she should
tremble like that. There is no reason to be frightened, one simply need
not marry, and then one need never strip off every stitch, and oh dear,
poor Mademoiselle who is so small and the lieutenant is very tall.
But just think if anyone is as fat as Herr Richter or our landlord. Of
course Herr Richter is at least 50, but last January the landlord had
another little girl, so something _must have happened_. No, I'm sure
it's best not to marry, for _it_ is really too awful. We did not look
any more for then came the worst, suddenly Dora began to be actually
sick, so that she could hardly get back to our room. If she had not
been able to, everything would have come out. Mother sent for the doctor
directly and he said that Dora was very much overworked; that it was a
good thing she was going away from Vienna in a few days. No girl ought
to study, it does not pay. Then he said to me: "You don't look up to
much either. What are you so hollow-eyed for?" "I'm so frightened about
Dora," I said. "Fiddlededee," said the doctor, "that does not give
anyone black rings round the eyes." So it must be true that one gets to
look ill when one always has to think about _such_ things. But how can
one help it, and Hella says: It's awfully interesting to have black
rings under the eyes and men _like_ it.

We were going to make an excursion to-morrow to Kahlenberg and
Hermannskogel, but probably it won't come off. Its 11 already and I'm
fearfully tired from writing so much; I must go to bed. I do hope I
Shall be able to sleep, but -- -- -- --

June 3rd. Father took Hella and me to Kahlenberg; we enjoyed ourselves
tremendously. After dinner, when Father was reading the paper in the
hotel, we went to pick flowers, and I told Hella all about what we'd
seen on Friday. She was simply speechless, all the more since she had
never heard what Mad. told us about taking off everything. She won't
marry either, for it's too disagreeable, indeed too horrid.--The doctor
said too: This perpetual learning is poisonous for young girls _in the
years of development_. If he only knew _what_ we had seen. Hella is
frightfully annoyed that she was not there. She can be jolly glad, I
don't want to