see it a second time, and I shall never forget it all my
life long; what I saw at the front door was nothing to this. Then
Hella went on making jokes and said: "I say, just think if it had
been Viktor." "Oh, do shut up," I screamed, and Father thought we were
quarrelling and called out: "You two seem to be having a dispute in the
grand style." If he'd only known what we were talking about!!! Oswald
has been home since Friday evening; he did not arrive till half past 10.
But he did not come on the excursion with us yesterday, although Father
would have liked him to; he said he would find it much too dull to spend
the day with two "flappers;" that means that we're not grown up enough
for him and is a piece of infernal cheek especially as regards Hella.
She says she will simply ignore him in future. Since I am his sister
I can't very well do that, but I shan't fetch and carry for him as he
would like me to. He's no right to insult even his sister.

Dora has just said to me: It's horrible that one has to endure that (you
know what!!! -- -- -- --) when one is married. Resi had told her about
those two before, and that only the Jews do it just like _that_. She
said that other people did not strip quite naked and that perhaps it's
different in some other ways!! -- -- -- But Mad. implied that it was
just _that_ way, only she did not say anything about the crushing; but
I suppose that's because of the cruelty of the Jews -- -- --. I'm afraid
every night that I'm going to dream about it, and Dora has dreamed about
it already. She says that whenever she closes her eyes she sees it all
as if it were actually before her.

June 4th. We understand now _what_ Father meant the other day when he
was speaking about Dr. Diller and his wife and said: "But they don't
suit one another at all." I thought at the time he only meant that it
looks so absurd for so tiny a woman to go about with a big strong
man. But that's only a minor thing; the main point is something quite
different!!!! Hella and I look at all couples now who go by arm in arm,
thinking about them from _that_ point of view, and it amuses us so much
as we are going home that we can hardly keep from laughing. But really
it's no laughing matter, especially for the woman.

June 5th. This morning Mother took Dora with her to pay a farewell call
at the Richter's. But there was no one at home, that is Frau R. was
certainly at home, but said she was not because they are very much
offe