r know before any way
there was of all kinds of loving to come together to make one way
really truly lovely. I see that now, sometimes, the way you certainly
been teaching me, Melanctha, really, and then I love you those times,
Melanctha, like a real religion, and then it comes over me all sudden,
I don't know anything real about you Melanctha, dear one, and then it
comes over me sudden, perhaps I certainly am wrong now, thinking all
this way so lovely, and not thinking now any more the old way I always
before was always thinking, about what was the right way for me, to
live regular and all the colored people, and then I think, perhaps,
Melanctha you are really just a bad one, and I think, perhaps I
certainly am doing it so because I just am too anxious to be just
having all the time excitements, like I don't ever like really to be
doing when I know it, and then I always get so bad to you, Melanctha,
and I can't help it with myself then, never, for I want to be always
right really in the ways, I have to do them. I certainly do very badly
want to be right, Melanctha, the only way I know is right Melanctha
really, and I don't know any way, Melanctha, to find out really,
whether my old way, the way I always used to be thinking, or the new
way, you make so like a real religion to me sometimes, Melanctha,
which way certainly is the real right way for me to be always
thinking, and then I certainly am awful good and sorry, Melanctha, I
always give you so much trouble, hurting you with the bad ways I am
acting. Can't you help me to any way, to make it all straight for me,
Melanctha, so I know right and real what it is I should be acting. You
see, Melanctha, I don't want always to be a coward with you, if I
only could know certain what was the right way for me to be acting.
I certainly am real sure, Melanctha, that would be the way I would be
acting, if I only knew it sure for certain now, Melanctha. Can't you
help me any way to find out real and true, Melanctha, dear one. I
certainly do badly want to know always, the way I should be acting."

"No, Jeff, dear, I certainly can't help you much in that kind of
trouble you are always having. All I can do now, Jeff, is to just keep
certainly with my believing you are good always, Jeff, and though you
certainly do hurt me bad, I always got strong faith in you, Jeff, more
in you certainly, than you seem to be having in your acting to me,
always so bad, Jeff."

"You certainly are very