d I have got a right in me to be very strong and feel
it, and to be always sure to believe it, but it ain't right for you
Melanctha to feel it. When you feel it so Melanctha, it does certainly
make everything all wrong with our loving. It makes it so I certainly
never can bear to have it."

They sat there then a long time by the fire, very silent, and not
loving, and never looking to each other for it. Melanctha was moving
and twitching herself and very nervous with it. Jeff was heavy and
sullen and dark and very serious in it.

"Oh why can't you forget I said it to you Jeff now, and I certainly am
so tired, and my head and all now with it."

Jeff stirred, "All right Melanctha, don't you go make yourself sick
now in your head, feeling so bad with it," and Jeff made himself do
it, and he was a patient doctor again now with Melanctha when he felt
her really having her head hurt with it. "It's all right now Melanctha
darling, sure it is now I tell you. You just lie down now a little,
dear one, and I sit here by the fire and just read awhile and just
watch with you so I will be here ready, if you need me to give you
something to help you resting." And then Jeff was a good doctor to
her, and very sweet and tender with her, and Melanctha loved him to be
there to help her, and then Melanctha fell asleep a little, and Jeff
waited there beside her until he saw she was really sleeping, and then
he went back and sat down by the fire.

And Jeff tried to begin again with his thinking, and he could not
make it come clear to himself, with all his thinking, and he felt
everything all thick and heavy and bad, now inside him, everything
that he could not understand right, with all the hard work he made,
with his thinking. And then he moved himself a little, and took a book
to forget his thinking, and then as always, he loved it when he was
reading, and then very soon he was deep in his reading, and so he
forgot now for a little while that he never could seem to be very
understanding.

And so Jeff forgot himself for awhile in his reading, and Melanctha
was sleeping. And then Melanctha woke up and she was screaming. "Oh,
Jeff, I thought you gone away for always from me. Oh, Jeff, never now
go away no more from me. Oh, Jeff, sure, sure, always be just so good
to me"

There was a weight in Jeff Campbell from now on, always with him, that
he could never lift out from him, to feel easy. He always was trying
not to have it in him and he