now to reach inside her to find if she was true in her loving, but
now something had gone wrong between them, and now he never felt sure
in him, the way once she had made him, that now at last he really had
got to be understanding.

Melanctha was too many for him. He was helpless to find out the way
she really felt now for him. Often Jeff would ask her, did she really
love him. Always she said, "Yes Jeff, sure, you know that," and now
instead of a full sweet strong love with it, Jeff only felt a patient,
kind endurance in it.

Jeff did not know. If he was right in such a feeling, he certainly
never any more did want to have Melanctha Herbert with him. Jeff
Campbell hated badly to think Melanctha never would give him love,
just for his sake, and not because she needed it herself, to be with
him. Such a way of loving would be very hard for Jeff to be enduring.

"Jeff what makes you act so funny to me. Jeff you certainly now are
jealous to me. Sure Jeff, now I don't see ever why you be so foolish
to look so to me." "Don't you ever think I can be jealous of anybody
ever Melanctha, you hear me. It's just, you certainly don't ever
understand me. It's just this way with me always now Melanctha. You
love me, and I don't care anything what you do or what you ever been
to anybody. You don't love me, then I don't care any more about what
you ever do or what you ever be to anybody. But I never want you to be
being good Melanctha to me, when it ain't your loving makes you need
it. I certainly don't ever want to be having any of your kind of
kindness to me. If you don't love me, I can stand it. All I never want
to have is your being good to me from kindness. If you don't love
me, then you and I certainly do quit right here Melanctha, all strong
feeling, to be always living to each other. It certainly never
is anybody I ever am thinking about when I am thinking with you
Melanctha, darling. That's the true way I am telling you Melanctha,
always. It's only your loving me ever gives me anything to bother me
Melanctha, so all you got to do, if you don't really love me, is just
certainly to say so to me. I won't bother you more then than I can
help to keep from it Melanctha. You certainly need never to be in
any worry, never, about me Melanctha. You just tell me straight out
Melanctha, real, the way you feel it. I certainly can stand it all
right, I tell you true Melanctha. And I never will care to know why or
nothing Melanctha. Loving