have gone too far, much too far!--I am ready, on the
apprehension of this, to bite my forward tongue (or rather to beat my
more forward heart, that dictated to that poor machine) for what I have
said. But sure, at least, he must be sincere for the time!--He could not
be such a practised dissembler!--If he could, O how desperately wicked
is the heart of man!--And where could he learn all these barbarous
arts?--If so, it must be native surely to the sex!--But, silent be my
rash censurings; be hushed, ye stormy tumults of my disturbed mind! for
have I not a father who is a man?--A man who knows no guile! who would
do no wrong!--who would not deceive or oppress, to gain a kingdom!--How
then can I think it is native to the sex? And I must also hope my good
lady's son cannot be the worst of men!--If he is, hard the lot of the
excellent woman that bore him!--But much harder the hap of your poor
Pamela, who has fallen into such hands!--But yet I will trust in God,
and hope the best: and so lay down my tired pen for this time.

Thursday morning.

Somebody rapped at our chamber-door this morning, soon after it was
light: Mrs. Jewkes asked, who it was? My master said, Open the door,
Mrs. Jewkes! O, said I, for God's sake, Mrs. Jewkes, don't! Indeed, said
she, but I must. Then, said I, and clung about her, let me slip on my
clothes first. But he rapped again, and she broke from me; and I was
frightened out of my wits, and folded myself in the bed-clothes. He
entered, and said, What, Pamela, so fearful, after what passed yesterday
between us! O, sir, sir, said I, I fear my prayers have wanted their
wished effect! Pray, good sir, consider--He sat down on the bed-side,
and interrupted me; No need of your foolish fears; I shall say but a
word or two, and go away.

After you went up stairs, said he, I had an invitation to a ball, which
is to be this night at Stamford, on occasion of a wedding; and I am
going to call on Sir Simon, and his lady and daughters; for the bride is
a relation of theirs: so I shall not be at home till Saturday. I come,
therefore, to caution you, Mrs. Jewkes, before Pamela, (that she may
not wonder at being closer confined, than for these three or four days
past,) that nobody sees her, nor delivers any letter to her, in that
space; for a person has been seen lurking about, and inquiring after
her, and I have been well informed, that either Mrs. Jervis, or Mr.
Longman, has written a letter, with a design of h