ger, notwithstanding his usage
of me. Mrs. Jewkes's wicked reports, to frighten me, that I was to be
married to the ugly Swiss; who was to sell me on the wedding-day to
my master. Her vile way of talking to me, like a London prostitute. My
apprehensions of seeing preparations made for my master's coming. Her
causeless fears that I was trying to get away again, when I had no
thoughts of it; and my bad usage upon it. My master's dreadful arrival;
and his hard, very hard treatment of me; and Mrs. Jewkes's insulting
of me. His jealousy of Mr. Williams and me. How Mrs. Jewkes vilely
instigated him to wickedness.' And down to here, I put into one parcel,
hoping that would content him. But for fear it should not, I put into
another parcel the following; viz.

'A copy of his proposals to me, of a great parcel of gold, and fine
clothes and rings, and an estate of I can't tell what a year; and 50l. a
year for the life of both you, my dear parents, to be his mistress; with
an insinuation, that, may be, he would marry me at the year's end: All
sadly vile: With threatenings, if I did not comply, that he would ruin
me, without allowing me any thing. A copy of my answer, refusing all,
with just abhorrence: But begging at last his goodness towards me, and
mercy on me, in the most moving manner I could think of. An account
of his angry behaviour, and Mrs. Jewkes's wicked advice hereupon. His
trying to get me to his chamber; and my refusal to go. A deal of stuff
and chit-chat between me and the odious Mrs. Jewkes; in which she was
very wicked and very insulting. Two notes I wrote, as if to be carried
to church, to pray for his reclaiming, and my safety; which Mrs.
Jewkes seized, and officiously shewed him. A confession of mine, that,
notwithstanding his bad usage, I could not hate him. My concern for Mr.
Williams. A horrid contrivance of my master's to ruin me; being in
my room, disguised in clothes of the maid's, who lay with me and Mrs.
Jewkes. How narrowly I escaped, (it makes my heart ache to think of it
still!) by falling into fits. Mrs. Jewkes's detestable part in this sad
affair. How he seemed moved at my danger, and forbore his abominable
designs; and assured me he had offered no indecency. How ill I was for
a day or two after; and how kind he seemed. How he made me forgive Mrs.
Jewkes. How, after this, and great kindness pretended, he made rude
offers to me in the garden, which I escaped. How I resented them.' Then
I had written