s the word! O why was I not a duchess, to shew my
gratitude for it! But must labour under the weight of an obligation,
even had this happiness befallen me, that would have pressed me to
death, and which I never could return by a whole life of faithful love,
and cheerful obedience.

O forgive your poor daughter!--I am sorry to find this trial so sore
upon me; and that all the weakness of my weak sex, and tender years, who
never before knew what it was to be so touched, is come upon me, and
too mighty to be withstood by me.--But time, prayer, and resignation to
God's will, and the benefits of your good lessons, and examples, I hope,
will enable me to get over this so heavy a trial.

O my treacherous, treacherous heart! to serve me thus! and give no
notice to me of the mischiefs thou wast about to bring upon me!--But
thus foolishly to give thyself up to the proud invader, without ever
consulting thy poor mistress in the least! But thy punishment will
be the first and the greatest; and well deservest thou to smart, O
perfidious traitor! for giving up so weakly thy whole self, before a
summons came; and to one, too, who had used me so hardly; and when,
likewise, thou hadst so well maintained thy post against the most
violent and avowed, and, therefore, as I thought, more dangerous
attacks!

After all, I must either not shew you this my weakness, or tear it out
of my writing. Memorandum: to consider of this, when I get home.

Monday morning, eleven o'clock.

We are just come in here, to the inn kept by Mrs. Jewkes's relation. The
first compliment I had, was in a very impudent manner, How I liked the
'squire?--I could not help saying, Bold, forward woman! Is it for you,
who keep an inn, to treat passengers at this rate? She was but in jest,
she said, and asked pardon: And she came, and begged excuse again, very
submissively, after Robin and Mr. Colbrand had talked to her a little.

The latter here, in great form, gave me, before Robin, the letter which
I had given him back for that purpose. And I retired, as if to read
it; and so I did; for I think I can't read it too often; though, for
my peace of mind's sake, I might better try to forget it. I am sorry,
methinks, I cannot bring you back a sound heart; but, indeed, it is
an honest one, as to any body but me; for it has deceived nobody else:
Wicked thing that it is!

More and more surprising things still----

Just as I had sat down, to try to eat a bit of victuals,