it far from
pleasurable. I got worried, and at length after much legal annoyance,
agreed to give five hundred pounds, on condition that I had a letter
from Pender saying that he was very sorry for what he had done, that
he was convinced he had made a mistake, and was then sure of his wife's
fidelity, or something to that effect.

Before this was quite settled, Mr. Pender got leave of absence, and
went away somewhere. My solicitor asked me whether I had any reason to
suspect that Mrs. P. had told her husband. Immediately I became savagely
suspicious, went to the cottage under pretense of asking for Pender
himself, although I knew he was away, and insisted she should meet me at
the town. I thought of nothing until we met, but how I should entrap her
into a confession, and worked myself up into a belief that the couple
were making a market of me.

She undressed, I caressed her, with hand on her cunt, looked at her and
said, "Your husband means to make a fortune out of me." "What he,--ho,
ho, ho," she cried, "the wretch,--oh! I shall be exposed,--ho, ho," and
was as white as a sheet. When she got better, I told her all, she
knew nothing about what her husband had done, and begged I would pay
nothing,--she would drown herself.--and I left, convinced that the poor
woman was true to me.

Pender gave notice to leave, and forfeiting wages left his place, and
went to the North of England. Months afterwards I received a scrawl
saying that the child was exactly like me, that P. was not unkind, but
she was unhappy, would like to see me; and if I wished it she would run
away, and be as good as a wife to me. There was no name or address to
it, and I never heard of her afterwards.

I thought all settled, and that no one would know about it; but for all
that it leaked out. Months afterwards being at my aunts, I got into
one of her servants, and after giving her a good fucking one night, and
telling her after a fuck not to wash, she said, "I don't want you to
get me in the family way like Mrs. Pender." She had heard that. How the
devil did it leak out?

After Christmas Fred and I went to see our women, he wanted more than
I did. I had some harlotting; not being at all faithful to Mabel, I had
fits of great incontinence, and as many as three different women on the
same day, at times.

Exceedingly nice women were then to be met in the Quadrant from eleven
to one in the morning, and three till five in the afternoon. I would
have one