us to any gal in the
street. "Though they won't believe you if you do, for I have a good
character. I've seed you often go in with them." I had fancied no one
ever saw me in that low street, and wondered if any other person had
recognized me there.

I never had her again. Once or twice I saw her at the street-door, but
so soon as she saw me she rushed in-doors, and I had too many fresh and
younger women at hand to care about her. Here was a case of a woman who
could not restrain herself, owing to the long absence of her legitimate
doodle, and gave way to her uncontrollable passions for that night. That
was the only conclusion I could come to.

Then soon afterwards I had the clap. Mary cried, and declared she had
not given it me, and I am sure she had not. Then almost for the first
time I began to use cundums, or French letters, as they are called.
I did not like them, but had suffered so much from gonorrhoea, that I
carried them in my purse in readiness.

My experience with this poor class of women was soon considerable.
Satiated, sick of them, yet I continued to frequent them for the simple
carnal pleasure of coition. There was no sentiment about it, no liking
for the women, for though their manners sometimes amused me, they more
frequently shocked me, and the poverty of some distressed me; but I had
no money for choicer entertainment. My vigor was great, my pleasure in
copulation almost maddening, a cunt was a cunt, and I got my pleasure
and relief up it, whatever its owner might have been. A sensuous
imagination aided me. When once my prick was up a woman she was for the
time more or less invested with charms, and her imperfections forgotten.
I used to shut my eyes, and fancy I was stroking a houri with the finest
limbs and ivory flesh, and could fancy all this up to the moment of
ejaculation, I fancied thighs and cunt which were not those of the woman
who was at that moment doing her best to please me.

There were occasions when the women when naked revolted me, my prick
refused to stand, and I departed without copulating, but those occasions
with this class of women are not worth noting. I have been subject to
this sudden revolt and prostration, sometimes even when the woman was
most beautiful. Nervousness, fear, some sudden dislike, and even most
ridiculous reasons have caused it.

I should have mentioned that gradually it had taken hold of my mind
that my prick was a very small one. How this notion first aro