uprighter.--My
pencil-case.--A female bilker.--A savage frig.--A silk dress
soiled.

I felt such a void, that I came to the conclusion that I had fondly
loved Mary, and missed greatly her kind, sympathetic association. For
a long time I could think of nothing but her, even when I fucked other
women, and got so miserable about her, that I rushed into indiscriminate
cheap whoring again. I had still not money for the best class of women,
and did not like baudy houses; but there was no help for it, and so
whoring I went, and largely in the Strand, for at that time in E..t.r
and C. t...e Streets there were many and nice brothels at all prices.

But I for some time abstained from women, and had wet dreams. My mind
ran constantly on Mary, and when I saw a nice girl, used to wonder if
her cunt was like Mary's, and this specially of two girls about nineteen
and twenty years of age, daughters of one of our next-door neighbours.

The privies of the houses in our terrace were built in pairs, the garden
wall divided them and partly the cess-pool which was common to the two.
I used to take pleasure in watching to see these girls go to the privy,
and although the idea of a female evacuating revolted me, yet used to
try to get to our privy when one of the girls went to theirs, and would
stand smoking just inside the passage by the back-steps of my house,
tip-toeing to catch a glance of their heads, and stopping myself from
bogging sometimes, so that I might get there at the same time. Directly
I saw a head off I followed quietly, and if the weather was quite still
we could hear footsteps in each other's gardens too well.

The cess-pool had at the time I write of just been emptied, the turds
dropping and flopping down could be heard, it was not nice, but it did
not shock me. I liked to hear the girls' piddle splashing, and used to
push my prick back, and sit back on the seat, so that my piddle might
drop straight, and make much noise. It pleased me to hear the joint
rattle and splash we made if we pissed at the same time. I did this so
constantly, that I could tell which girl was there, for the piddle of
one always made twice as much splash as the other's. Up would stand my
prick, and often I could not piss for its stiffness, directly I heard
the girls splashing.

One day I had a hardish motion, and was randy that morning almost to
pain. One of the girls was there. I strained, my cock got stiff, and
began to throb violent