I could to help her, so disclosed my case to
a friend; who advised me to borrow, as I was so near coming into my
property. I borrowed fifty pounds of a Jew, promising to pay him a
hundred pounds for it six months afterwards; and got her lodgings a few
miles from our house. Susan also got bigger, and made no disguise of her
intention of getting abortion.

No disclosure of the sisters to each other had yet taken place, yet
I felt it would be done. One morning Susan's eyes followed me whilst
waiting at table in a most unpleasant manner. I felt all was found out,
so to face it, and get the worst over, threw myself in her way. "You
wretch, you scoundrel, you blackguard," she whispered to me on the
staircase, "it is you who have seduced my poor sister." Soon a better
opportunity was found, and we had a scene; it took place in my bed-room,
when the other servant who had replaced Sarah, and my mother were out.
I could only say I was sorry. She blazed out worse than ever then,
and spoke so violently about my behaviour to herself, that I told her,
whatever her sister had to complain of, I thought she had but little,
for that mine was not the first prick which had been up her, I was sure.
My words and manner staggered and quieted her and after making me take a
solemn oath (which I did holding a Bible) I would never tell her sister
that she was in the family way by me, she got tranquil, and I fucked her
before she left the room.

Susan was dreadfully ill a few days afterwards, she had got a
miscarriage; my mother attended to her, thinking she had inflammation
of her bowels. I went to see Sarah, who told me some fellow had got her
sister Susan in the family way, she could not tell who, for Susan quite
refused to say. She was soon after confined with a fine child. Troubles
then came apace, the mother of the two women died, Susan left my mother
at once to take charge of the old man's house, and never let me have her
again after her miscarriage. Then the father came to grief, failed and
was sold up. Sarah went home with her child, and after a time, acting on
the advice of a friend, I advanced money out of my property which I had
then come into, and sent the whole lot to Canada. After a year my child
died, and Susan got married. What became of Sarah, I don't know, for all
letters soon after ceased; but to the last I believe that Sarah never
knew that I had had her sister as well as herself, although Susan knew I
had had both of them a