so excited me, that but for Camille, I think I should have
ravished her. She soon got well, and I said, that if I did not soon have
her, I should cease seeing her. "Who hindered?" Camille asked. There she
was, I might have her.

Then I had a suspicious fit. All the old Major had told me about fellows
being sold, and taken in by women who were not virgins came to my mind.
The girl was never out but for a few minutes at a time to fetch things,
yet other men saw Camille, and some might have seen and had the girl.
Camille had once taken her out in a cab; she might have been to some
man's. So I said I would not give the money unless I saw her virgin cunt
first. After a day or two, Camille agreed to it if I would give her ten
pounds down, and would swear never to disclose it to the girl.

I thought still I was to be fooled, so I called upon my old
schoolfellow, who used to say, "Snatch at her cunt, and show her your
cucumber." He had been one at the frigging match, and had just been
appointed assistant-surgeon at a hospital; he was a bachelor and
baudy-minded as ever. "M...," said I, "have you ever seen a virginity?"
"Many," he replied, "I have dissected them, and if girls have anything
the matter with their wombs, or cunts, we get a look, they don't mind a
doctor. If a girl has piles, I make her turn up, and have opened several
fine women's virgin cunts, asking questions all the while, if they feel
this or feel that. They say yes or no, which of course I knew they
would say, but they think I am very clever for asking. Some like a
young doctor's fingers on their privates, though they say they object.
Assistants only get the chance with the poor, the better classes have
older married men."

I asked him to explain one to me on a woman, and he did. We went home
with the same women; they were astonished, for instead of pulling our
pricks out, we both merely felt and looked at them, and he gave me a
full lecture. It was an odd sight to see him explaining the situation of
a virginity, I holding a candle to see better. One of the girls roared
with laughter, the others fancied they had some ailments, when they
found out he was a doctor, and he gave them advice.

I don't mean ailments of their cunts. We did not fuck either of the
women.

From reading, his descriptions, his sketches and what he pointed out on
three different cunts, I felt satisfied that I should know a virgin, and
told Camille what I had done. She was then good en