ifice was my essence. At the
sight of it, up came my prick, still dripping, and up it went into the
sperm-lined passage.

My second fuck over, she washed. No sooner was that done, than I wanted
to see it all over again. "You are very fond of women," she said, "I
thought you had never had a woman before." Then I explained, gave her
the Victoria, and scarcely daring said (for she was dressed again), "How
I should like to do it again." "You take up much time of me, but you
may, if you like, at side of de bed." Out came my prick, up it went, her
duff and belly in sight now, till I spent in her, and promising to see
her again I left. One does not get silk stockings, laced chemise, four
wax lights and three fucks for a pound now, if rooms be well furnished,
or not.

I saw her the next day, then saw her almost daily. Little by little I
took to calling at all times, and sleeping with her. The more I had her,
the more I liked her. She was a very nice woman in most ways, I scarcely
ever found her untidy, dirty, or slammerkin. If not dressed, she had
a clean wrapper on, had nearly always silk stockings on, and a clean
chemise; and therefore call when I might she was ready to be fucked at
a minute's notice. She was a good cook, and would cook omlettes and nice
things in her room. I used to fuck, get out of bed, eat, and fuck again
with the food almost in my mouth. I used to have little dinners in her
room, sent in by a French cook, which were excellent, and then with
stomach full and with nice wine, would spend the evening in baudy joys.

What astonished and delighted me at the same time, was the freedom and
the way she lent herself to all my voluptuous inclinations. The gay
women I had had, I had fucked so fast, and got away from them as soon
as I could; my spend even scarcely finished at times. With my mother's
servants (my first love Charlotte excepted, and for a time with Susan),
my enjoyments were mostly hurried, a fingerstink, a frig on their cunt,
and a hurried look were all my amatory preliminaries for the most part;
because I was too impatient for the spend, was mostly obliged to seize
opportunities in a hurry, or because the girls were impatient at being
pulled about. When I had tried with them, some of the little amatory
amusements, which were beginning to suggest themselves to my voluptuous
imagination, they resisted, or only half lent themselves to my will.
With Susan I had tried the most, because I knew she had had