I see clearly that I was
not of this world, and I thank you for making it clear to me.
"Farewell; you will never touch _my_ axe. Yours was the executioner's
axe, mine is God's; yours kills, mine saves. Your love was but mortal,
it could not endure disdain or ridicule; mine can endure all things
without growing weaker, it will last eternally. Ah! I feel a sombre joy
in crushing you that believe yourself so great; in humbling you with the
calm, indulgent smile of one of the least among the angels that lie at
the feet of God, for to them is given the right and the power to protect
and watch over men in His name. You have but felt fleeting desires,
while the poor nun will shed the light of her ceaseless and ardent
prayer about you, she will shelter you all your life long beneath the
wings of a love that has nothing of earth in it.
"I have a presentiment of your answer; our trysting place shall be--in
heaven. Strength and weakness can both enter there, dear Armand; the
strong and the weak are bound to suffer. This thought soothes the
anguish of my final ordeal. So calm am I that I should fear that I had
ceased to love you if I were not about to leave the world for your sake.
"ANTOINETTE."
"Dear Vidame," said the Duchess as they reached Montriveau's house, "do
me the kindness to ask at the door whether he is at home." The Vidame,
obedient after the manner of the eighteenth century to a woman's wish,
got out, and came back to bring his cousin an affirmative answer that
sent a shudder through her. She grasped his hand tightly in hers,
suffered him to kiss her on either cheek, and begged him to go at once.
He must not watch her movements nor try to protect her. "But the people
passing in the street," he objected.
"No one can fail in respect to me," she said. It was the last word
spoken by the Duchess and the woman of fashion.
The Vidame went. Mme de Langeais wrapped herself about in her cloak,
and stood on the doorstep until the clocks struck eight. The last stroke
died away. The unhappy woman waited ten, fifteen minutes; to the last
she tried to see a fresh humiliation in the delay, then her faith ebbed.
She turned to leave the fatal threshold.
"Oh, God!" the cry broke from her in spite of herself; it was the first
word spoken by the Carmelite.
Montriveau and some of his friends were talking together. He tried to
hasten them to a conclusion, but his clock wa
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