knowe my name; and al my inward
parts vanquished, and hemmed in with burning amorous flames, my speech
was taken from mee with feare and reuerent bashfulnesse.
In this sort remayning, I knewe not vppon the suddaine what good
aunswere I might make, or otherwise doe her reuerence, but to offer her
my vnworthy and vnfit hande; Which when it was streined in hers, me
thought that it was in hot snowe and curded milke, and me thought
indeede, that I touched and handled something which was more then
humaine; which when I had so done, I remained moued in minde, troubled
and doubtfull, vnaccustomed to such a companion, not knowing what to
say, or whether to followe her, in my simple apparell and homely
bringing vp, not agreeable with hers: and as a foole, vnworthy and vnfit
for her fellowship, perswading my selfe, that it was not lawfull for a
mortall and earthly creature to enioy such pleasures. For which cause,
my collour red and blushing, with reuerent admiration, being grieued at
my basenesse, I setled my selfe to followe her.
At length, and yet not with a perfect recalled minde, I beganne to
reduce and sommon together, my fearefull and distempered spirites:
perswading my selfe, that I must needes haue good successe, being neere
so faire and diuine an obiect, and in such a place; And so followed her
on with a panting heart, more shaking than the birde _Sisura_, or a
Lambe carryed in the mouth of a Wolfe.
And thus touched most feruently with pleasant heates, growing &
encreasing more & more, they began to boyle & kindle my colde feare, and
dispositiuely to adopt my altered heate to sincere loue. Which being
thus brought to thys passe, by a prouoked inward desire, yet inwardly as
I reasoned with my selfe, it was wonderfully variable and doubtfull. Oh
most happye Louer of all Louers, that in requitall of hys, might bee
sure to participate of hers.
On the other side, I perswaded my selfe, that if I shoulde offer vnto
her my amorous heart and loue, hauing no better thing to bestow vpon
her, or present vnto her, it might be that she would not refuse it: like
_Artaxerxes_, the King of the Percians; who hauing water presented to
hys handes, accepted of it bowing downe himselfe. Heerewithall, me
thought yet that a fearefull and chill trembling inuaded mee, infusing
it selfe ouer all my body and breast, renewing the force of the extreame
fire, euen like dry reede: which being once kindled, is enflamed and
nourished with the fre
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