essfully overcoming any difficulty always does. Now for
a quick change from without to within--we shall probably soon see each
other, besides, today I cannot tell thee what has been passing through
my mind during the past few days concerning my life--were our hearts
closely united I should not do things of this kind. My heart is full of
many things I have to say to thee--ah, there are moments in which I feel
that speech is powerless! Cheer up--remain my true, my only treasure, my
all!!! as I to thee. The gods must send the rest--what for us must be
and ought to be.

Thy faithful

LUDWIG.

Monday Evening, July 6.

Thou sufferest, thou my dearest love! I have just found out that the
letters must be posted very early Mondays, Thursdays--the only days when
the post goes from here to K. Thou sufferest--ah, where I am, art thou
also with me! I will arrange for myself and Thee; I will manage so that
I can live with thee; and what a life!!! But as it is--without thee!!!
Persecuted here and there by the kindness of men, which I little
deserve, and as little care to deserve. Humility of man toward man--it
pains me--and when I think of myself in connection with the universe,
what am I and what is He who is named the Greatest--and still this again
shows the divine in man. I weep when I think that probably thou wilt get
the first news from me only on Saturday evening. However much thou
lovest me, my love for thee is stronger; but never conceal thy thoughts
from me. Good-night! As I am taking the baths I must go to bed [two
words scratched through]. O God--so near! so far! Our love--is it not a
true heavenly edifice, firm as heaven's vault!

Good morning, on July 7.

While still in bed, my thoughts press to thee, my Beloved One, at moments
with joy, and then again with sorrow, waiting to see whether fate will
take pity on us. Either I must live wholly with thee, or not at all. Yes,
I have resolved to wander in distant lands, until I can fly to thy arms
and feel that with thee I have a real home; with thee encircling me
about, I can send my soul into the kingdom of spirits. Yes, unfortunately,
it must be so. Calm thyself, and all the more since thou knowest my
faithfulness toward thee! Never can another possess my heart,
never--never--O God! why must one part from what one so loves--and yet
my life in V. at present is a wretched life! Thy love has made me one of
the happiest and, at the same time, one of the unhappiest of m