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neglect have, after the attention she has shewed me, and the friendship
she has expressed for me to all the world?
I know not what to determine. I am going to Silleri. Adieu till my
return.
Eight o'clock.
I have entreated Emily to admit Madame Des Roches among the number
of her friends, and have asked her to visit her to-morrow morning: she
changed color at my request, but promised to go.
I almost repent of what I have done: I am to attend Emily and Bell
Fermor to Madame Des Roches in the morning: I am afraid I shall
introduce them with a very bad grace. Adieu!
Your affectionate
Ed. Rivers.
LETTER 110.
To Miss Fermor.
Sunday morning.
Could you have believed he would have expected such a proof of my
desire to oblige him? but what can he ask that his Emily will refuse? I
will see this _friend_ of his, this Madame Des Roches; I will even
love her, if it is in woman to be so disinterested. She loves him; he
sees her; they say she is amiable; I could have wished her visit to
Quebec had been delayed.
But he comes; he looks up; his eyes seem to thank me for this excess
of complaisance: what is there I would not do to give him pleasure?
Six o'clock.
Do you think her so very pleasing, my dear Bell? she has fine eyes,
but have they not more fire than softness? There was a vivacity in her
manner which hurt me extremely: could she have behaved with such
unconcern, had she loved as I do?
Do you think it possible, Bell, for a Frenchwoman to love? is not
vanity the ruling passion of their hearts?
May not Rivers be deceived in supposing her so much attached to him?
was there not some degree of affectation in her particular attention to
me? I cannot help thinking her artful.
Perhaps I am prejudiced: she may be amiable, but I will own she does
not please me.
Rivers begged me to have a friendship for her; I am afraid this is
more than is in my power: friendship, like love, is the child of
sympathy, not of constraint.
Adieu! Yours,
Emily Montague.
LETTER 111.
To Miss Montague.
Monday.
The inclosed, my dear, is as much to you as to me, perhaps more; I
pardon the lady for thinking you the handsomest. Is not this the
strongest proof I could give of my friendship? perhaps I should have
been piqued, however, had the preference been given by a man; but I
can with great tranquillity allow you to be the women's beauty.
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