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voice--my dear, I never heard him speak without feeling a softness of which it is impossible to convey an idea. But I am wrong to encourage a tenderness which is already too great; I will think less of him; I will not talk of him; do not speak of him to me, my dear Bell: talk to me of Fitzgerald; there is no danger of your passion becoming too violent. I wish you loved more tenderly, my dearest; you would then be more indulgent to my weakness: I am ashamed of owning it even to you. Ashamed, did I say? no, I rather glory in loving the most amiable, the most angelic of mankind. Speak of him to me for ever; I abhor all conversation of which he is not the subject. I am interrupted. Adieu! Your faithful Emily. My dearest, I tremble; he is at the door; how shall I meet him without betraying all the weakness of my heart? come to me this moment, I will not go down without you. Your father is come to fetch me; follow me, I entreat: I cannot see him alone; my heart is too much softened at this moment. He must not know to what excess he is beloved. LETTER 109. To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall. Quebec, March 28. I am at present, my dear Lucy, extremely embarrassed; Madame Des Roches is at Quebec: it is impossible for me not to be more than polite to her; yet my Emily has all my heart, and demands all my attention; there is but one way of seeing them both as often as I wish; 'tis to bring them as often as possible together: I wish extremely that Emily would visit her, but 'tis a point of the utmost delicacy to manage. Will it not on reflection be cruel to Madame Des Roches? I know her generosity of mind, but I also know the weakness of the human heart: can she see with pleasure a beloved rival? My Lucy, I never so much wanted your advice: I will consult Bell Fermor, who knows every thought of my Emily's heart. Eleven o'clock. I have visited Madame Des Roches at her relation's; she received me with a pleasure which was too visible not to be observed by all present: she blushed, her voice faltered when she addressed me; her eyes had a softness which seemed to reproach my insensibility: I was shocked at the idea of having inspired her with a tenderness not in my power to return; I was afraid of increasing that tenderness; I scarce dared to meet her looks. I felt a criminal in the presence of this amiable woman; for both our sakes, I must see her seldom: yet what an appearance will m
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